TSP: The Back Story from Steven's POV

Soooo...
I had been looking at lizabef sideways and she had caught me a few times. "What? Why are you looking at me that way?" But...how do you tell your girlfriend she’s getting fat? I went for compliments "WOW, baby that shirt is really cute, it makes your breasts look really big. Are they growing?" "I love that dress, you look so curvy" "I love to snuggle you, you are sooo soft". lol. But she just turned the fat jokes my direction, and I had to go cry and eat another PB&J. Then, she started working out every night, but her breasts were REALLY starting to grow. On 4/23 she asked if we could talk...I think I knew immediately lol. That night she was very scared, but I told her we needed to make a doctor’s appointment and see what was next. I told her THAT WEEKEND that if she was really pregnant she would have the baby before her birthday…it was a joke since it will be her 21^st. Little did we know…

The week before this Logan had really spooked me out with 2 dreams. In the first dream he had he was a big brother. He informed me, as I was waking him up that he would be a big brother when he was 5. I laughed at him and told him to get some clothes on and meet me in the kitchen. 2 days later, while we were eating breakfast, Logan informs me that “Babies don’t like shots”. I asked him what he meant, because Logan is constantly thinking and pondering things before he says them. He said that the night before he dreamed that he was with a baby and the baby was getting shots, and didn’t like them…spooky lol.

05/01/08 9a.m. I am lost, running late, but I make it to Dr. Carter’s office just in time to run in for the ultrasound…and find the nurse in full panic mode. Where she was expecting to do a “first visit” ultrasound and see nothing, she is confronted by a perfectly round head, fully developed spine, then a face, then a foot. We were all shocked, but this nurse was FLOORED! None of us realized how far along Elizabeth Ashley was. I mean, she had been to see Dr. Carter in November, January, and March for her endometriosis and the pregnancy hadn’t been discovered. I look back and laugh, but both her and her nurse were pretty freaked out. I thought Dr. Carter was going to cry lol. I have never heard a doctor apologize for ANYTHING, but she apologized every third word or so ( I know I exaggerate STFU its my story) and then we had to do blood tests, readings, everything you do in the first 5 months of a pregnancy- but in 2 hours. After this whirlwind of activity we still had to go to class and school. Spent, we kissed, parted ways and said we would talk later. I dove into my research at work and designing some new logos to distract myself. It was starting to hit me…this baby is going to be fatherless after George Thomas Renfro gets a hold of me. Oooo shit. I left work, picked up Logan from school and we went and played. After he went to bed I cracked open a Corona, shut off the lights and sat and thought and thought and thought.

Friday I muddled through my day. At 5:30 p.m. I took Logan to meet his mom for a visit. She was late, so Logan and I had fun reading books and talking about being a big boy. We have decided to wait on telling him, so I took this time to get a feel for his thoughts on brotherhood and whatnot. He’s going to be awesome. I finally got to Elizabeth’s house at 11 p.m. I put my head to her belly and watched a movie. By 2 a.m. I was excited, anxious, and in love.

I’m gonna have a princess

A baby grrl

A daughter.

She’s going to love me,

I will love her,

Someday she will leave me for another man

And Elizabeth Ashley and I will remember these days, and laugh